wishing he was mine

marmie going bak tmr=/

2011-06-16T20:10:00.000-07:00

buang eh..mai marmie going bak tmr le..
sad die sia..=( she coming bak to visit next yr le.
cry die..;'(

bad memories haunting mi..

2011-06-12T01:09:00.000-07:00

mai last time de bad memories are haunting mi agn..
i hoped i would nvr rmb it ever agn..but i jux came bak..
it made mi miserable..i hate tis feeling..=<

i wanna cry..

2011-06-07T21:43:00.000-07:00

mai heart dam pain sia..he is drifting away from mi further and further away..:'(
i miss him alot..wai muz everyt be tis way?wai cant he be coming closer to mi...
sometimes i wanna kill maiself..im such an idiot...i love him but wai..wai..
muz it be him...i guess im jux stupid to fall in love with a guy tt i hav no hope with..
i shud jux live in a world of misery...-cries much- D':

played dance revolution and jubeat

2011-06-05T04:40:00.000-07:00

today dam shuang sia.played jubeat and dance revolution.;)

jux rite i at tt time saw masturina so i played with her dance revolution.

misses him much

2011-06-01T04:40:00.000-07:00

i really miss him...i wanna go out with him..
everyday i chat with him is lik imma bugging him or smth.='(
i asked him whether he thinks tt im irritating but he says no luh.
i kept on wondering whether he was jux being nice to mi.
everytime i see tis girl posting on his wall it mkes mi think tt he has a stead..
it hurts mi..=( i dun lik tt feeling..but i cant giv up yet..
i still dunno whether he has a stead..he noes of mai feelings to him.
but he wont believe mi till he hears it face to face from mai mouth.
hais..im jux too shy to say it to him face to face..i wanna cry everyday..
but i cant do tt in front of mai family..wai cant he jux tell mi his feelings towards mi..
bad or good i will still listen..at least when he tell mi i know tt whether i shud giv up or not..
living in sadness everyday~
-cries- ='(

today at mj

2011-05-29T22:26:00.000-07:00

omg!today at mj was super wierd lorr.

there was tis boy tt is veh attached to mi.:/

he said tis "shantelle jie jie let's go!:)"

then i kena dragged by him.

then coach kelvin ask him " do you love shantelle jie jie?"

he replied "yes ! yes!!yes!!!"then i was lik wts?

the c girls keep teasing mi lorr:( aiya but he quite cute but wierd pure wierd.:x

science centre!!XD

2011-05-25T23:53:00.000-07:00

today mi, sihui, jiaxin, jiamin, caleb, john and ramadhan went to the science centre.
it was really really really fun!especially when during the lecture the instructor
went to put teddy junior and teddy senior into a small canon.
first he wet their butts then squeezed them into the tube.
soon after he sprayed deo and sealed up the end which the teddy bears wouldnt fly.
he then took a lighter and BANG!the 2 teddy bears exploded out of the canon.
teddy junior de pigu chaoda while teddy senior de pigu baozha.LOL!
after the lecture, mi , shihui , jiaxin and jiamin went to find baby chicks in the science centre.
we ended up touching one of them which has jux hatched today.
and saw a baby chick hatching from its egg.we felt veh guilty as we couldnt help the chick.
after everyt we went to eat mac's and went bak to sch.i am veh veh happy today!xD
i wish everyday was lik tis~:)

muahahaha!=D

2011-05-24T18:11:00.000-07:00

now in school de com. lab doing science project.;)
lalala~later i post agn :DD
bye bye

today ish a happy day~!:D

2011-05-24T06:04:00.000-07:00

today i sooo happy sia..
mai fren which i have jux fell out with started talking to mi agn.
jux lik old times. joking around and playing together.
training today oso went by smoothly nth bad happened.^^
LOVESZXC BADMINTON FOREVER MANZXC!!:DD

drifting

2011-05-21T01:49:00.000-07:00

these few days he isnt free anymore..
but i still happy cuz he still replies mai msgs.
i miss him alot..ever since tt day i went out with him..
i have had dreams of him alot.tt was the time i found out i really lik him alot.
but i guess tts wad ppl say..when u lose smth u will cherish them more.
but the thing is i haven lost him nvr have i had him..
misses him alot sia...:(

nort the best day of mai life..

2011-05-19T04:56:00.000-07:00

today when i went to sch i was walking under mai block towards mai busstop
& i saw 3 guys all wearing black, saying bad words abt mai sch sia..
they said rude remarks which i didnt lik but i jux walked past them.
dun care wad they talking lorr.its wad they think not wad i think.
went to sch received almost all mai results but nort very happy with it.
mai maths results was dam disappointing lorr..
i got a tuition teacher but still get tis low, =/ hais..sad sia...
today mai whole body ache lik hell sia.nao is lik mai back sibei pain,
& mai legs and right arm due to badminton training ytd.=/
tmr oso got training, so cfm dieee tmr lorr.
everyday thinking abt HIM i cant help it..i really lik him alot but he doesnt know..
oh well, wait ba..

wish he was mine..

2011-05-14T04:46:00.000-07:00

imma hav revived mai blog~!:D
i wish tt he was mine..i lik him alot..
he knows but..he says tt he will only believe by the next time
we meet i confess to him face-to-face.><
i will be dam dam shy lorrs.he is soo nice and funny tt i cant help but fall in love with him..
how much i wish he was mine..well i..still dunno whether he lik me or not.
but i will wait!:)as long as it takes for him to lik me and till the day he was mine.
but..he is 16 and is graduating soon, some more he not from mai sch..:(
hais..oh well..i will let god choose whether he would be mine ba..

♥♥♥

match against mrtan

2010-12-18T00:12:00.001-08:00

zzz...played against mr tan ytd lost but was very close...the score was 18-21...
i think im going to be 3rd singles sian...i dun wan!!i wan become doubles!
hais...no choice liao luhx...

A loner

2010-12-05T02:00:00.000-08:00

i dun give a fucking damn anymore!everyone i my class are assholes...
bitches like celine, jiaxin and shihui aren't worth my bloody time..
they are such bloody liers!sometimes i jux hope tt they died or smth!
i hate them!flirt flirt flirt always say i flirt or smth...they are the ones tt flirt the most!
and their definition of flirting are all so crude!
yea...so wad when someone calls me i open my eyes big?its a bloody habit i cant kick!
im not acting cute!and bloody asshole!i did not complain to joe!
u guys are all bloody liers!don't u guys have ur limits?!all of you all backstabbing me..
you think i like it ah?i backstab u u guys all go gang up against me...
u think u guys big rite?u guys and all ur bloody rumours...
guess wad....i dun fucking care no more!CB...
i next yr rather go recess alone than to go recess with all u stuck up snobs...

trust

2010-12-04T01:17:00.000-08:00

Trust
to shihui : ehss..is not tt i dun trust you n jx is jux tt everytime i tell u secret you always spread.
and you oso lie to me alot!say i everytime lie...is you the one tt keep lying!i have nvr
complained to joe!and he nvr scold jx!he doesn't even know who the hell she is!so stop
with ur lies!you say tt i know jx for 1 yr or 2 yrs ah?!get ur facts rite!i was in her
class since p1!and ur definition of flirting is so crude..talking to a guy means flirting ah?!
so if you talk to a guy i say you flirt you happy meh!

to jiaxin : you wan to choose from me and shihui then fine...i dun give a damn anymore!now celine
is threatening me to stop harassing you n shihui!you know wad im bloody fed up with
both of you!

ghost festival?!

2010-08-11T22:57:00.001-07:00

ghost festival start liaox....frens say smth like cannot wear black
during ghost festival etc etc etc ....something abt the ghost will follow u...
cannot anyhow pick up things oso....sianx...so tat means if find $50 note on the floor dun pick up ah ?siao...money sure pick up de rite?lol...
and using com. in my sch during ict lesson
bai bai~!

DS!

2010-07-25T02:25:00.001-07:00

got my new ds ytd yippee~!!l0l!
took pics of my cute doggiees~bibi n wawa!overly happi!
they were so damn freakin cute!!wawa...is now bigger than her mother (bibi).
they were like jumping around when they saw me l0l!
bibi is the one lying down .
wawa is the one sitting with the tongue out.l0l

end of NOMAD

2010-07-19T01:04:00.000-07:00

now tat NOMAD is over more n more hw coming sia....
n i missed NOMAD i cant believe it.those days was fun.realli fun..
i made more frens cuz of NOMAD n all of them are realli nice...
i hope tat i can participate agn next time but...its onli for sec 1's n 2's n its
held every 2 yrs...T.T damn tired after swimming lessons gtg bb~!

cramp all overs n b'dae present for jiaying!

2010-07-05T02:17:00.000-07:00

gave jiaying a birthday present the day b4 her birthday.!
was wondering whether she liked it...hope she did.!
the present was half made n half bought...and it was quite a big one...
was rushing through the nite cuz i jux found out her birthday was comin tat dae...T.T
i made her a bottle of stars a big one.tat dae as well my whole damned body
was so damned cramp as well sia....now my arm and shoulder only one tat cramp liao loh...

tues trg

2010-07-01T01:17:00.000-07:00

tues trg was exceptionally fun!but still tough...beginning of trg.
do finish warm up muz do 30x10 footwork...zzz...damn tiring as muz finish in 1 min.
after tat the boys helped out too train us or somethin lik tat.had to run 10 rounds
around the sch which is from the ISH(indoor sports hall) through the canteen...
past the parade square and behind the soccer field...tiring lorh...after tat more trg...
yong le threw the shuttles for me n i had to do netting n tapping...zzz...
the fun part was the tapping.cuz during the tapping the shuttle hit nic soh de arse!
i almost dropped dead laughing!but at the same time quite sorry...nickson was there too...
he i think oso laugh...hahas.accidentally tapped until lionel n yong le...for lionel i oso laugh...
but for yong le i was like sorri sorri sorri cuz he was the one throwing the shuttle but i still
tap until him...T.T after trg...went home bath then peng san...at 9.30 pm cuz i got hw to do...
took some time though....tired like hell.>,<

bak from june retreat

2010-06-25T23:33:00.000-07:00

yo pips agn.
bak from june retreat~!
had lots of fun!the 1st day me marilyn n the others nvr sleep for 1 whole dae.
played poker cards with the boys.there was tis game tat we had to pick a card
the person hu picked the biggest n the smallest card had to take a waffer stick.
n 1 person muz bite the stick while the other had to jux u noe bite it off??>.<
2nd day had amazing race n fear factor...during amazing face i injured my feet ...
zhengyu like help me la.tis was the convers :
zhengyu : angeline jiayou!
me : im not angeline!!
zhengyu : o.o shendiao jiayou!
me : my name is not shendiao either!!
zhengyu : o.o okay shantelle jiayou!but shendiao sounds nice wad?
me : hahas?
-end of convers-
he ask i need help anot?than he call edwin jux rite got trolley there
so edwin ask me wan me push u ?n i was like no thank you?(of coz i dun wan la)
3rd day nth else liao juz pack up n go hm so i guess tats all lol
byes~

nomad rehearsals colliding with june retreat

2010-06-18T01:43:00.000-07:00

yoz!
i very fan nao sia.my june retreat is clash
together with my nomad rehearsals.dunno wad to do liaoz....T.T
will be bak in sg tmrw bought some souveniers for some pips.
have to do project with an qi she say i like pang sei her like tat.
but going to do it with her soon after i have taken away my fan nao.[:
how tat i can find time cuz of the nomad thing and etc.(lots of things)
note to shi hui >cant find the pig so bought koalas small de.
kaes i gtg liao bai bai~;D

went to gold coast

2010-06-06T23:01:00.000-07:00

went to goldcoast a few days ago. when i was there i went to movie world!!

took pics with elmo!!XP sat on roller coasters with my mum!!the hilarious part was

is tat my mum kept shouting holy shit continuously...

n at the end of the ride she aid "i hate u"(jokingly)hahaha!!

here is a pic of me and my mum we took it at movie world haha

will update soon!!

2 days in sydney

2010-05-30T21:40:00.000-07:00

in sydney for 2 days liao enjoying life here.lol

recieved cupcakes from my mothers fren.XD

they were so deicious~!!its very very cold here in sydney.

need to wear lots of clothes(warm clothes).(:

will update soon i gtg now need to bake cake with my mother

we competing hu make the nicest.haha ;D

zai jian lorhhs~!

going overseas tmrw

2010-05-28T00:27:00.000-07:00

hmmm....going to sydney tmrw onwards.
going there for 21 days!!XDsoo excited!will be in the plane for 7 hrs.
going to be boring so bringing stacks of books along.
(lol tats too sarcastic i bringing 3 larhhs)bringing some souvenirs home.
hmm...2 kangaroos for anqi n weisheng, 1 pig for shi hui
(hey shi hui if u are reading tis here is a msg for u!hi pig!!)
and some other things if can buy larhhs.hahas~!
will be blogging during the hols so come tag if u can.♥

the worst day of my life~!!

2010-05-21T23:43:00.000-07:00

todae bmt no trg but got tis canadian tok thing...
was waiting for the mr tay(the canadian person)
to come for the tok thing...wait for 3 min haven come yet...
damn sian...zoey ask whether can use com nich soh say can...
so we all use lorhhs...tat mr tan come liao...captains not with us...
so we nvr greet la...than he scold us say we treat him as glass...
walk in long time ago still haven greet him...
walk in for onli 3 mins say he walk in so long liao...
...after the scolding ask us all to run 30 rounds!!!30 lehhs...
not short 5 rounds sia...
the seniors all say he nvr liked the girls...than mr tan leave liao...
my whole freakin body pain like hell!!i run with sch shoe lehhs...
not sports shoe!and also todae i first time hear the seniors use vulgarities sia....
they also sae they wan disband the team...and form a new grp...
felt like crying tat time...but bare with it larhhs...
cuz i dun wan be crybaby..im jux emotional...cant help it realli...
damn pissed off todae dun wan sae liao...
zai jian...

the reviving of my blog lol!

2010-05-17T02:26:00.000-07:00

yo~!
everyone im gonna revive my blog today...
its been months since i blogged...lets see oh yea...
made new frens in sch some pips like weisheng, shi hui, yan ping, lz,
and my michelle jie jie!<3>re...
lalalalalala~hmmm....bmt trg tough but fun loved it and forever will!XD

kaes zai jian lerhhs~!

sec 1 camp

2010-01-16T20:46:00.000-08:00

sec 1 camp was horrible!!
sleep time...when i was going to sleep
my classmates keep talking until 2 am...
my clique de fren suddenly turned around and hug me...
i had such a big fright!!i keep pushing her but she wouldn't budge...
until i kick her than she woke up...she snore until damn loud sia...
woke up an had to do the telematch...bored like siao...
finish liao...go home peng san(fainted)woke up at 7 pm!!
i was like woah!!!so late?!than peng san again...
woke up the next day...must be damn tired....

my new school

2010-01-05T00:03:00.000-08:00

yo!!everyone!!
ytd got lost in school compound with jia xin...
reached class everyone was so damn quiet...!!
today met the 4 idiots from my class...made 4 frens(not them)
they kana made me so damn pissed they were both noisy,
said something bad abt the form teacher...
teased everyone and called them names....!!
i told them to shut up as the whole class might
get demerit points and sent down becuz of them...!!
and worst thing is they are sitting next to me...!!!!!
grrr...damn angry so i try to ignore them but i keep wanting to scold them!!!
now i think u know why i call them idiots right?

happy new yr!!!!

2009-12-31T20:16:00.000-08:00

hi all~!!
i had loads of fun playing basketball with boys ytd...!!
LOLx!!!my team won!!!though im the only girl...
in the freakin team...and when i first held the basketball...
i was like...OMG!!!so heavy!!as its been half a yr,
since i played with a basketball or netball...i did shoot some hoops in total
the basketball went in 21 times!!
it was fun!!!they were all so friendly!!and i dun even know them!!!
XDplus they are the same age as me!!!ermm...but taller...LOLZ..!
when i went back home...my whole body was aching!!haha!!

school timetable is out!!

2009-12-29T22:05:00.000-08:00

the school timetable is so damn confusing...!!
its so much harder to read than my pri school timetable...
at least that time is so much easier!!
i quarreled with my grandma to go see the timetable...
and my fren say its so colorful!!wo hao fan nao!!!
now i need to find out whether i need to wear the freakin tie....!
jia xin de cousin say don't need to wear everyday....im so confused!!>.<''
jiu ming ah!!!!

what truly pisses me off...

2009-12-26T01:08:00.000-08:00

it pisses me off when today kris(nuer) is supposed to go
with me to watch alvin and the chipmunks 2...
i called her house in the morning at around 11 am ,
her father picked up the phone and say she went OUT!!
so i tried calling everyone in my hp contact list and some say ...
not free, parents say no, sleeping and hp not on....
i went out with dilys and sarahanne in the end...
worse off the movie tickets were all sold out!!!!
so we went to the arcade to play, it was so fun!!
later we when we were going home that time sarahanne's mother,
gave me and dilys christmas present...i was so shocked that she would
buy us a snow globe i said thank you..and we went our seperate ways...
hmm...i guess that's all...u just have to know that im pissed off by kristen....

scared, nervous and angry me...

2009-12-16T23:39:00.000-08:00

Scared:
i was scared that i can't get into Anderson sec....
Nervous:
i was nervous abt the posting results...
angry:
i am angry that my grandma can't find anything else to do
other than scolding me....i was oso thinking
why can't she make me like her but make me hate her so badly ...
until i keep cursing her:( i dun like to curse ppl
i only start cursing when i get so pissed off until i can't take it anymore..
i can't even have a nice chaat with her plus its oso very rare...
hmmm...i think thats all so byes~

its almost 3 months since i had not talked to her....

2009-11-22T22:42:00.000-08:00

wow...almost 3 months....
ok...3 months ago i had a fight(quarrel)with de qi...
she was being so unreasonable....so i had to say the 4 words....
yi dao liang duan...she was the type of person whom when happy...
say good things to you when not happy...say so much bad things till....
u cant take it any more...and now she is getting worse...by THREATENING
ppl about the yi dao liang duan thing...
here's what she said...
de qi:....or else you will have the same ending as Shantelle kwan(me..)
but...i was the one whom said the yi dao liang duan thing...
she is like saying that she was the one saying the yi dao liang duan....
she really sickens me...!she doesn't even know that she is hurting
someone or somebody's feelings...i really hope that she will change her sickening attitude...
i guess that is all...and this is the first time that im so pissed off...
usually i would juz forget abt it after awhile...:(

something pissed me off 2 day ago...

2009-11-14T22:26:00.001-08:00

2 days ago when i was in a bus with my gimpo and her fren...
3 guys and a girl went on the bus...the girl was sitting beside me...
and the ugly guy(his heart i not beautiful so i say he ugly) with glasses...
said something that u yourself will be pissed off...
he said to the girl that was sitting beside me
"eh...there's an old chio sitting beside you"as i was unusually lazy that day...
so i just took off whatever i can find in my closet...i took out a DKNY t-shirt,
a pair of jeans and a jacket...that ugly guy went to poke me...and say something...
i can't understand what he was saying cuz the bus was too loud....
so i just rolled my eyes and look away...than when he see me smile...
i heard something that made me quite happy..."eh...she not old but a chio..."
but when i heard..."...a chio with no fashion sense"he really almost had me
bashing him up in the bus...i was so pissed off in the bus that i keep cursing them
in my mind...if u can read my mind ...u won't hear like .."they are so ugly"it would
be worst...oh when i went home i played wii with my fren...so happy that i almost forgot abt them...but i rmb that there was this guy that said "dun be so bad lah...."he was handsome inside and out as u can see i cant call a guy beautiful unles i really hate that guy like hell...
oh well... i think thats all.. so byes...!!

yay!!going to my gimpo de house for sleepover!

2009-11-06T23:32:00.000-08:00

so damn happy!!anyway...i go there every year..
whats there to be happy about?i'm going to miss my favorite show...
anyway the last time i went there was so damn fun!!
i played wii games like paper mario 3d n 2d,bowling,tennis and lots more!!
played with my gimpo de neighbor so fun!!played with dog...
went shopping went back home and played wii agn!!
the last time i went there was on november......hehe....
the dog looks like this>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

the day i give a present to my partner

2009-11-04T20:14:00.000-08:00

ytd i only had 5 mins to pass the present to Joy
and come back home agn....when i reached there i waited for Joy for 15mins!!
so angry!!when she came down her explanation is that she was playing games!!
as u can see i was very pissed off...but after awhile i forgot abt it....
i like to forgive ppl too easily...my motive is only to be happy...
my grandma went shopping until 6+ pm than come back....
so damn happy as i can read internet manga until like siao!!
the manga name is called Kaichou wa Maid-sama!
the manga is nice and is funny....i was hoping to finish it by 2 weeks
so wish me good luck!!>.<>

a usual and boring day

2009-11-02T20:48:00.000-08:00

well...i have nothing much to say....
i woke up with a booming sound of laughter from my grandma...
(she was watching cartoon so old still watch cartoon...)
i slept again for abt 15 mins... and woke up with a scream....
from my baby cousin!!:(after that i can't even sleep a wink...
so i went to watch tv...and my grandma started laughing agn!!
irritated i switched on my ipod at full volume...i could here nothing but....
loud music in my ears...fell asleep agn...woke up at 12pm when my grandma...
kicked me awake....that sure was a hard kick.....woke up ate my lunch...went on9
to chat with my mum....read a book...watch tv and draw....
nothing much to do....so i sleep....^.^

the 3rd day of my beloved frens seperation

2009-11-01T19:59:00.000-08:00

hi agn!
at the p6 graduation concert....there was soo...
many ppl watching us!>.and u may guess its so damn boring!!it almost made my partner.. Joy fall asleep while for me i was talking to my fren...Rebecca he kept on telling me to "sit up straight!!"i was... "ok..."and i kept on slouching while she was paying attention to the speech... at the finale it was very sad as it was our last day of school....T.T
so....after the balloons part i started crying ...
everyone hugged me,i also hugged everyone....i was so happy....
that i still have frens though we have to be separated...^.^
on the 1 st day of separation from my beloved frens...
i went out with my fren...xin xian and of course my mama...
it was soo...fun!!we were playing so much that my hands hurt....
kris was supposed to go... but too bad...she say she can't go!!T.T
2nd day of separation which was ytd...
was a very boring day indeed!!i was watching tv, reading a book and talking to my frens ...
now the 3rd day of separation which is today...
was talking to my mother on msn...reading a book and nothing else i guess...
and maybe doing some chores...>.<'' and i think that' all i can say byes......

The day before the concert

2009-10-29T01:33:00.000-07:00

whew...1 more day till the concert starts...
im so damn nervous...all the p6 classes and i did,
a last prac performance for tmrw ....
the unexpected thing that happened was that this time
the lower pri went to see us...(i think they are lower pri)
and the worse is that my class was first!!T.T
when it was my grp to go...in the middle of the dance...
i accidentally hit rei with my elbow...
but it was not my fault as she was standing too close to me...>.<
LOL!!it was actually fun...but i am still scared...
wa....i just rmbed that tmrw will be the parents' and teachers'
coming to see us tmrw!!!!T.T
(feel like dieing)aw kris dancing today...
not too bad...i am proud of her...!
qi and i are still not frens...and it had been around 2 weeks i guess...
she i doing quite well without me...but he really have to change her attitude!!
so i guess its time i gtg so byes!!

rehearses

2009-10-28T02:41:00.000-07:00

hello again!!
erm....i may not be able to blog everyday.....
so as to not get scolded for too much games and fun....
sucks right?i know.......could have been worse....
during rehearsal had some difficulties....
not too good and is like...everyone was shouting
while the teacher was there...after that solved the freaking problem....
rehearse one last time till we go to hall for prac show....
something like that....the funny part was when my hp keychain bottle
opened and at first i thought it was coloured water....it enede up as...
perfume....very strong perfume!!!
i was like omg!!!!omg!!omg!!and rushed to the toilet....
after washing it....it still smells like perfume but not too strong...
erm... i think that is all.... so bah bye!!!!!>.<

back to sg!

2009-10-26T21:49:00.000-07:00

just came back from Penang with family...
had loads of fun!!>.<
except...the part when my eyes started filling with tears
when in temples...not very good cuz is so super itchy...
started scratching alot!!plus made my grandma laugh at me...
(not too good abt it..)we went on a ferry on 25th oct...
my hair was blowing everywhere!!the bet part is
i scared my fren!!(brian)i ate my first ever vegetarian pizza!!
it was so damn good!!(so crunchy!!>.<)
by the way i bought clothes with cats or animals and some souvenirs....
ate some vegetarian stuff without knowing its vegetarian....
when reach sg talked to my beloved mommy....
thinking of calling frens when school ends!!
ok i think that is all..... byes~